So I didn’t eat from Saturday onward, and I maintained weight. How is that even biologically possible? To not eat a BITE and maintain weight? It’s beyond frustrating, so I pushed myself to do that which I hate, and eat when I have the opportunity to fast. But i know, eating a little bit spikes your metabolism and pushes you to lose. It seems so counter-intuitive that I could lose weight whilst eating food…
So 82ib, 82ib, 82ib, 82ib and a bowl of vegetables. I had a rice cracker thingy, 15g of red pepper, 12g of orange pepper, 15g of baby spinach, a medium button mushroom, and 20g of carrot in stick form. I had that with a dessert spoon of low-fat cottage cheese to dip it in, half a dessert spoon of salsa, and 10g of lemon houmous.
That left me SO DAMN FULL. which seems a bit daft even to me… A bowl of vegetables and I’m full to the point of discomfort?
Except then I ate a pack of 98kcal ‘biscuit moments’. CHOCOLATEEEEEEEEEEEEE
What does chocolate cause for Faye? BINGE!
now i’m fighting the binge urges hard, and i don’t think i’m going to win. i already ate a milky way ‘celebrations’ chocolate, my brother won a box and i ate one even though they aren’t mine, but i need chocolate. chocolate. chocolate. i want biscuits too but chocolate comes first. i don’t have time to lax, i need to but i missed my opportunity, can’t have them kicking in at work. can’t have them kicking in on saturday either though, or sunday. what am i going to do? I’m going to have to eat at my aunt’s house I bet, but i might not actually, i’m going to take some ‘safe’ dinner.
I need to lose this weight! I need to see my TRUE weight but i’ve already lost it. I was going to fast then lax so i’m all empty of food weight, but i’ve eaten before lax, so now i don’t know. I usually drop about a pound a day when fasting, why hasn’t it worked this time? I can’t binge. BUT CHOCOLATE.
Need to lose by tuesday, probably going into hospital then (know fo sho tomorrow). how? how do i do this?